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Autism and Immunizations.....are they related?? So this has been something that I have heard about alot lately and because of that it's been on my mind. Mainly because I have always done immunization on my kids but also whether to continue or not if this could be a factor. I did a little research about it on the internet, in defining Autism this is what it said;Autism (often referred to as autistic spectrum disorder, Asperger's syndrome, or pervasive developmental disorder) is a complex developmental disability -- a neurological derangement that affects the functioning of the brain. This condition usually appears during the first three years of life and often strikes following an early childhood of apparently normal development. Mental and social regression are not uncommon. Although the severity of the affliction varies from child to child, the following symptoms are typical: inadequate verbal and social skills, impaired speech, repetition of words, bizarre or repetitive behavior patterns, uncontrollable head-banging, screaming fits, arm flapping, little or no interest in human contact, unresponsiveness to parents and other people, extreme resistance to minor changes in the home environment, self-destructive behavior, hypersensitivity to sensory stimuli, and an inability to care for oneself. The Center for Disease Control and Prevention said they have done some studies but have found no direct cause for Immunizations causing Autism other than the facts people have reported and often noticed "signs" after the MMR vaccine had been given to their child. The MMR is the Vaccine for Measles, Mumps, and Rubella. This Vaccine is usually given to children between the ages of 12 months to 15 months and again with the rest of their Booster shots usually between ages 4 and 5 right before they go to kindergarten. In doing my research here is what else I found as far as the side effects with the MMR. The regular ones as far as low grade fever, soreness and crankiness. Severe allergic reactions (low probability in all vaccines), deafness, seizures, coma, or lowered consciousness, and permanent brain damage. These are SIDE EFFECTS, and these have all been proven and linked to the MMR, although some are rarer than others still very scary. The Dept. of pediatrics did a case studies with 12 children, 9 of which had been diagnosed with Autism. The Onset of behavioral symptoms was associated by the parents with MMR vaccination in 8 of 12 children. In these studies they state that “We did not prove an association between measles, mumps, and rubella vaccine and the syndrome described.“ The reasons behind it were there were too few cases (only 12 children), no healthy controls for comparison, and no reported time period during which cases were identified. Although they have been giving the MMR vaccine I believe after the 1950's and the first cases of Autism were reported in 1943. Since then it has increased so whether the vaccines have helped speed things along or this all happens to be a complete coincidence. In Utah it was reported that 1 in 79 boys have autism. Autism seems to run more frequently in boys than girls. They also said that "more children will be diagnosed with Autism this year than AIDS, diabetes, and cancer COMBINED. That is so crazy to me. I also read alot of these mothers stories and they stated that they had very normal kids some even smarter and moving along in their speech and motor skills alot earlier than normal. They said after they had the MMR's done that the motor skills and behavior changed drastically. This is all so scary to me especially since I have been all about Immunizations from the beginning. I also learned that Autism can be controlled so to speak. Jenny McCarthy was on Oprah one day and her son has Autism. She said she had cured him by changing his diet and with a few supplements and such. I just wanted to make you guys more aware because I had no idea about any of this until I did the research and I don't know about you but my childrens pediatricion never has said anything. This is difinantley something I will be talking to him about. Especially if it is something I can control as a parent, not to mention all the other stuff we have to worry about. That wraps it up for another Talkin Tuesday!

Special Day

It was one year ago today that Devin and I were sealed in the Manti temple! It was such a special day and I was so glad to all of our friends and family that could be there.

Devin was such a good sport about posing for pictures and for the wedding video I had done. I wanted something special to have for this day!

It had poured that whole day. I wore my dress and everything because I wanted to have pictures at the temple and do a wedding video since I didn't do one when we got married the first time b/c we had no money. The sealing was so neat and the sealer said alot of insightful and special things that I will always remember and remain sacred to me! While I was getting dressed in the bride's room I just kept praying to Heavenly Father just give me 20 minutes with no rain just so we can get some good pictures. Sure enough he answered my prayers and gave me just that. We had exactly 20 minutes with no rain so we got some pictures with all of our friends and family. We got a few by ourselves and then it started to come down. We didn't care we had alot of fun messing around! My poor dad had to follow us around in the rain for half and hour so we could get some good pictures and so the videographer could get what he needed.
By the time we got done we were soaked, my dress was pretty much ruined but atleast I got some good use out of it.
It was cool because just as we were ending the sky parted a little bit above the temple and the sun broke through, you can kind of tell from the top right in this picture. It was one of the most beautiful things I had ever seen especially with the temple in the background. The Manti temple was absolutely gorgeous. It turned out to be a perfect day and well worth the 1 yr. and half wait it took trying to get there. I am not going to say we lived Happily Ever after because we haven't yet and it doesn't mean we won't. I am glad that I found the love of my life and am married to my best friend and we now have eternity to work on the rest. (don't read on if you don't want to see me get cheesy because this won't happen often, this is mainly for my husband anyway)



I love you Dev I am so glad we found each other in a time in our lives when we both seemed lost and then it all came together and made sense again. Thanks for finding me, because with that I found myself. I am glad we get eternity so we can figure it all out together because I know at times it's not easy but then again I don't think it is supposed to be. That's what will make us stronger and grow more together and it will all be worth it. Thanks for being such a great father and for that it makes me love you even more.You are the love of my life! Ames

The honesty of Children

Look at this cute picture my son drew of our family, isn't it cute!

Notice the stick figure on the top of the page with the big round belly, ya that's me! Notice how all the other ones have small round bellies, ya that's everyone else. How I found this out you wonder, well Devin asked Easton. Conversation went a little something like this:

Devin: Easton who is the person with the big round belly?

Easton: That's mommy

Devin: why did you draw her with a big round belly?

Easton: Oh, because she just had a baby!

Ya well it's nice to know what my son thinks of me and how he portrays me......children!

PS the only good that came from this is a little more ambition to work out harder and I guess I did laugh about it later.

The Zoo and a much needed chick flick

Yesterday I took the kids to the Hogle Zoo along with my sisters and their kids! It was perfect zoo weather, it was a nice afternoon. The only problem was the afternoon probably wasn't the best time to go because most of the animals were sleeping but we had a good time anyway and we did see..........


Elephants

Black Bears

And my personal favorite Giraffes'


Me with the kidlets

Us gals

We wish we could have put Easton and Hunter in the lions den!

Gracie at the end of whatever it is we are doing.... believe me I knew how she felt


Then later that night I went to a late movie with my sisters. We went to "Nights in Rodanthe", another romantic and sad love story based on the great book by Nicholas Sparks. It was fun and much needed, I think between the three of us we almost finished off two bags of popcorn!

PS Friends, I know we were supposed to go see it for another girls night but don't worry I would love to go see it again.

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Not in my neighborhood! I bring up a really sensitive issue today....for those of you that don't know my husband runs/owns a residential treatment facility for Juvenile Sex offenders ages 13-18. These are the offenders not the offended. My reason for talking about this today is because there has been alot going on (controversy) with a facility that they want to open up in PG and they have already purchased the house and property for it. It was on the news and everything last night because all of the neighbors and the community surrounding the home is freaking out, of course as anybody would! So I have to ask some questions as we all should, but first let me give you some background knowledge from some one that knows a tiny bit about it, second hand. First of all let me preface that when I first met Devin and found out what he did I couldn't believe it, I was like "how can you work with "people" like that"? I am human and to me ANY sexual predator just plain grose me out.Again I was ignorant to all facts about it, not that I was wrong for thinking or feeling the way I do but I had a little bit of a better understanding.Some of these boys statistically have either been sexually abused themselves, may come from broken homes, poverty stricken homes and so needless to say all of these circumstances don't always put them in the best predicaments. Not to justify it though because of this but some of us can't help the situations we are brought up in and unfortunately some of them don't know any better. There are more things that go into this but A. I probably shouldn't talk about it on the internet and B. it's plain just not any of my business and I am not a psychiatrist! So when Devin gets most of these boys in his home they are scared and just want to change and get help.It's not like they are the type of offenders that will run away and break into someone's house and rape and pillage. The group home for some of them is a better place and situation where some of them have come from and they would rather be there then home anyway! They are just as vulnerable as anyone else. The first week they come, they have to wear a jump suit (like they have in jail) they have to have very short or buzzed heads, they get absolutely no privileges at all at first, as should be, they are not allowed to speak unless spoken too. They are under 24 hr. supervision and care the whole time they are there at the group home. The program is atleast a 12 month program if not longer for some boys.They have to sign a log outside the bathroom door when they go in and out of the bathroom, there are bed checks every 15 minutes from the staff while they sleep at night, and there is an alarm on all the windows and doors. They all receive anywhere from one to three hours of therapy each day with a clinical therapist. They have a group session with each other and then their own. These boys attend an alternative school and they live in this house like any other house with chores and other responsibilities just like any other "normal" teenager would be doing at home.They have three meals a day and do homework and other appropriate activities during the week. During the time they are there, there is 6 phases/levels that they have to go through and pass. Depending at what phase or level they are on they get more and more privileges and also responsibilities. Although the whole time they are there, there are some things and activities that they can't do at all or some have to be earned, such as drinking soda or eating candy. Something as simple as that doesn't always happen either no matter what phase they are on, little things like that have to be earned. So needless to say nothing is taken for granted while they are there. They are there to receive treatment and help so that they will change, grow and have a better understanding of who they are!When I have been there before I honestly can say I don't feel uncomfortable (but thats just me) these boys at first won't even look you in the eye, they act like a puppy that has been beaten. I got to know some of them and when you are around them it is almost like you have forgotten why they are there. First impression of some of these boys was not what I expected the first time meeting them. I guess what the media portrays as sexual offenders you think evil looking, tattoos,piercings everywhere, cocky and condescending attitudes. These are just mostly average every day teenagers some I would even say nerdy looking (the Steve Urkel type)even. Not boys you would expect I guess to be in any kind of group home let alone for sexual offenses! So to sum the understanding part all up, after their 12 month course or longer depending on each situation. These boys graduate can go on to live somewhat normal (whatever normal is right??) lives with statistically 70% never offending again (if it can be tracked, that is kind of a rough estimate give or take a little). Yes its not 100% but they are working on it. So now back to the questions. Should we as communities allow these boys to receive treatments in our neighborhoods with vulnerable children around? People always ask Devin or say "I think it's great what your doing but can't you just take them and work with them out in some desert somewhere". Well if you think about it you have to have employees and other people willing to come to"work" to help these boys and its not realistic for it to be out in the middle of nowhere and these "boys" also have to go to some sort of school. What they are trying to do is help these boys get help and make an easy transition back in to the community and society. How can that happen if they are isolated? Also shouldn't they just be locked up because what they have done should obviously not be tolerated at all? If they are locked up they wouldn't receive the help and counseling they need and it would just be a band-aid for awhile is all! So don't you think if they were locked up and received no treatment they wouldn't get help and it may or for sure will happen again. How does that help us. We are always so concerned about what we hear that goes on around us but what about what we don't hear? It's not like these boys have to register as "Sex offenders" unless they are 18. So we could have at any given moment have some sort of sex offender living by us and many of us do and don't even know it, some registered some not. Wouldn't and don't you want to be more aware and cautious of that? I think most of us moms are anyway with anything because for our kids we would stop at nothing to protect them!! Now I can honestly say that I wouldn't want a sex offender home right next door to me but it's not like they put these homes just in any neighborhood they are commercially zoned areas. So as communities should we reject and be completely against the help they are receiving or should we just be more aware? Now by any means I am not trying to make you tolerate any of this or accept it in any way I am just trying to help us all understand it and ask questions because this is a difficult topic as it is and especially for me to talk or write about for that matter! I agree to the fact that it is the victim that I feel the worse for in this situation but the offenders need help too as well as the victims so this isn't some viscous cycle. I would rather be aware of where they are getting help and just more cautious of that. I would also have them get help so society can maybe possibly get better and are communities can be safer because it is our kids that have to grow up in them and I know we all want our kids to live in the "safe neighborhood". So sometimes I wonder what we can do better as society to reach out more and help. I think it is great what my husband and his associates are doing because if you think about this from the other end as if your child had become the offender wouldn't you want him/her to get the help they need to overcome such a horrible thing and get help from people that care and want to be there. There is already so much we have to worry about as parents lets not be ignorant or uneducated as to what is going on around us and hopefully we can all teach and raise our children the same. So just know that I am not in any way justifying what these boys have done and my heart goes out ALWAYS to the victims but I just am trying to understand all of this like anybody else. I would rather know that these boys are getting help now before it's too late and again where they are receiving this help, I am just trying to be more aware. I guess I have a better understanding and knowledge of it all because of what my husband does. I am thankful for people like him that our willing to do it so my kids can grow up in a safer place. As for these boys I just always hope that they are willing to make a change because it can be done if they will go on living what they have learned and been taught. Last but not least and us as a society to be more forgiving, understanding and aware. That as soon as we hear something we are not running out with our pitchforks and torches. I have heard Devin often say: I am here to help these boys not just in the fact for what they have done but help them find out who they are in a time in their life (teenage hood) when it is hard enough as it is for any teenager. To help them find themselves, gain a self esteem,some sort of self worth and a better understanding of the world around them. He says that he hopes to be a good enough role model and example to them so that they will/want to change and know that it can be done. Also so they know that not everyone in the world is against them that there are people out there that love and want to help them!

Sorry this one was so long and congrats to those that made it through but I think that it was something that couldn't have been short. Thanks again for listing to Talkin Tuesday and I promise they won't all be so serious in the future but hey I am just here to talk about what is on my mind so you see I can be serious sometimes......

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tagged by Jen (ok ok I am finally doing it!)

8 favorite t.v. shows
1: law and order SVU
2: LOST
3: Grey's Anatomy
4: lipstick Jungle
5: american idol
6: the office
7: All my children (it's a SOAP ok)
8: dancing with the stars

8 favorite restaurants
1: Happy Sumo
2: Tepanyaki
3: Red Lobster
4: Outback
5: Cafe Rio
6: Costa Vida
7: Macaroni Grill
8: PF Changs

8 things that happened yesterday
1: I got out of bed
2: I went shopping with my sister (surprise)
3: I went to my moms (even bigger surprise)
4: cleaned my house
5: made beds
6: watched my everyday TV O version of All my Children
7: went to the gym
8: watched Maid of Honor with my hubby

8 things to look forward to
1: conference weekend
2: loosing the 15 lbs I so desperatly want to do
3: getting new clothes after loosing the 15 lbs
4: fall weather....finally
5: bunco
6: Park City with my girlfriends
7: Halloween
8: Christmas

8 things i love about fall
1: the cooler weather
2: Halloween
3: Thanksgiving
4: fall clothes
5: the leaves changing
6: pumkins
7: the fall candle smells
8: haunted houses

8 things on my wishlist
1: to loose 15 lbs
2: new carpet in my house
3: to go on a Exotic Vacation somewhere
4: for all my family and friends to be happy
5: to be more organized
6: to laugh about things more
7: to never argue with my husband
8: for my children to always stay close to the gospel/church

8 people i'm tagging
1: Jamie (my sis)
2: Kylie (my sis)
3: Shelly Haslem
4: Michelle Tolboe
5: Val (cuz)
6: Meg (cuz)
7: Audrey Genta
8: Ashley Hanks