Feeling sorry for myself......

So I went to the Dr.'s again yesterday for my 38 week appointment and don't worry NOTHING is going on I am still the same! I couldn't even write about it yesterday because I was so mad. I know I still have two weeks left but the reason for the frustration is because I have had contractions almost every day and I have had other things happen "down under" to have there atleast be some sort of sign that I should have been doing something! I also realize I have a scheduled c-section for the 8th of July which is a day early so no matter what I won't go over! I just don't want to have another c-section I want to be able to have a baby the"normal" way like everybody else. I know either way is not fun but I really want this baby to come and I want to do it on my own not have it cut out of me. Anyway I know I am probably sounding ridiculous but I think at this point I am allowed to be, so we still have 13 more days and counting so lets see if we can't get this baby here before then. My predicament is (and I have said this all along) if she does come early it will be on the 4th of July. If that's the case great what other holiday would you want your birthday celebrated on especially with fireworks! So for those of you that got through this irrational and pointless paragraph thanks for listening. Until next time..............